A BIG BIG THANK-YOU to all FB friends & neighbours of my games.

The reason me am writing this blog is to express my feelings of gratefulness to all whom me had interacted with in FB(FaceBook).Really wanna say a BIG BIG Thank-you to each & every neighbours, friends or strangers & aquaintance me just knew. Thank-you for being so kind, so generous, so caring in all ways. All of you are like my GOD-SENT guardian angels in this stranger's land me landed in 2004.

The day my flight landed, me was lost, stranded without being welcome with a warm hug nor kisses which me was expecting to get. Then on, me was stranded in a BIG beautiful place so named "my USA home" with 2trucks & 2cars parking outside the home. Somehow, me am not allowed no driving license nor do me know where those keys are hidden away. NOT allowed no "live friends", not allowed no outings or hanging outside. All me was given is like three basic human needs; "shelter, food & clothes"...That's all me gets. BET no American ladies would or could take up with all these me am going though... Nevertheless, me am not writing this blog to complaint BUT^ just sharing my bit of my 'depression'. I DO know individuals has their own poblems in LIFE. Life is a journey of the mixtures of sweet, sour & bitter. Therefore, it is just HOW one cope up with individual's desire or needs & love.

Especially to ladies out there; not just in America. I do know that ALL ladies needed is just a peace of mind, security in a man she love, stability in her life which she could moves on with LIFE... Me am saying this based on an innocent, simple minded lady like myself. I'm basically simple minded, innocent, truthful, trust- worthy, loyal & straight forward. All me am looking for is just as mentioned ; a simple peace of mind, security & stability in the man me love. Sadly enough, me didnt manage to achieve my 'dream come true' when I came over here. This my utmost regret in my whole life long. However, I will keep to my patient & I belief that ONE fine day, my dreams will be achieve.

Lastly BUT^ not least, back to my main point of this blog ; ALL I really wanted to say or express is my feelings of appreciation to all my kind neighbours, strangers, acquaintance that came into my life since me started playing 'games' in FB... YOU ALL have made me feels so blessed with guardian angels which GOD sent into my sorrowful life...You all have EASED up my sorrows, my stresses, my depressions & my fears. ALL of you have made 2009 my BEST year ever spent in this stranger's land of mine. Me am praying to thy Almighty LORD GOD to bless not only me, my family members, my relatives, BUT^ each one of you with "HEALTH & HAPPINESS"...

Health is life most treason(treasureable) gift from GOD & Happiness is life's richest assets of everything one could possibly achive. So... my dearest beloved FBF(FaceBook Friends), neighbours, strangers & even acquaintance whom me have interacted with ; PLEASE accepts my utmost grateful "thanks" me could ever say or express towards ALL the generousity & kindness m HAD recieved especially on this Christmas 2009. This my BEST happiest Chrstmas me have in these 5years in USA. Every other year of Christmas in USA is BUT^ Silent Night, Holy Night without love, without attention, without freedom, without care & concerns. Therefore, this Christmas is soooooooooooo special esp. a White Christmas here in Dallas for me. Add or top it up with ALL the warmness in "friendship" cares & concerns... Makes me feels so lucky & so loved... Thank-you, A VERY VERY BIG "THANK YOU" to EACH ONE in my FB interactions...

May GOD Bless each one with the BEST of HEALTH & HAPPINESS in each one's LIFE... STILL ending this blog with my final word.... GOD BLESS United States Of America! "GOD BLESS". Loves ya all lots like my "next of kin"... - Winny McDonald

Congratulations to Grace Theng!!!!!

Well, this is a BIG anouncement for my beloved daughter Grace Theng! She has successfuly passed her exams with flying colours-- & is assigned to the Senior A Class.. A BIG BIG Hoorayyyyyyyyy for HER...

I'm deadly PROUD of her... So to say, SHE made me PROUD of HER... She HAD been a very INDEPENDENT girl since I left her when she's only10yrs old. SAD me have to explains the situations of why me left her... Although, she's under my custody in my divorce, her father was given ful liabilty to visits her anytime HE wanted. Sadly enough to my disapointment, when me wanted to bring her along to the states, the USA Embassy needed a Letter Of Consent (LOC) from HIM saying that HE agreed & knows that HE cant visits her anytime HE wanted when she's in USA. HE refused to sign or hands in the LOC, therefore the stupid USA Embassy refused to STAMP her approved visa to her passport. This HAD given me no other choices BUT^ to come over to serve my newly wed husband aged 60 OR to stay there & cancels my visa as well... I married him becoz I truly loves him and wanna be with him. Nevertheless, I loves Grace more than I can say OR more than any1 else in this world. However, my heart be telling me that IF I cancel off my visa, I'll be losing my life time companion whom I loves with all my heart. Now, I'm in between two beloved person, ONE that is cute, lively & will grow up & marries some1 ONE final day & she'll probably be much happier over there with her sister, brother, grandmother, grandfather, maybe her father & others that loves this cute smart little girl. The other ONE is my newly wed husband whom is old & HAD just underwent a prostate surgery & needed some1 by his side to serve him... LOST & confused in making SUCH a tough decision!

Well, finally AFTER consulting Grace to persuade her into persuading her father to sign the LOC, SHE being naive and young at that moment WAS brainwashed by ALL my ex family to stay there,told me SHE herself doesnt wanna comes with me... (sob... sob...) my breaking heart... Therefore seeing my EX family loves her so much, & being confident that she'll be fine with OR without me,with a breaking heavy heart full of tears me finally LEFT her behind to come serve the man me loves in Oct. year 2004.

Emmmmm... years passes & flies so darn FAST that now itz been 5long dragging years. Me HAD re-applied for her new visa again on the very next available opportunity me could which was AFTER me settled my own USA Permanent Resident card in year mid 2005. Therefore since then, me been waiting & waiting for her NEW approval to enable her smooth visit here anytime she wanted. Sadly enough, till date... coming end of 2009 now, HER visa is YET to be ready YET... HOW saddenning....

Well, enough of my stories or sadness. This blog is supposingly a Congratulations & Jublications for her SUCCESS & good results praises & also encouragement for HER so as SHE knows... I'M SO VERY PROUD of her... I really wanted to ANNOUNCE to the WORLD; I'M so very PROUD of this litta Princess of my family, GRACE THENG.

I sincerely hopes that ALL my friends will continue to guide her, encourage her to STUDY harder for HER OWN future sake. Knowledge is the hard work through studying hard. I'm thankful mostly to my sunshine of my family JOYCELYN for her guidance, support, caring & love she HAS given to GRACE on my behalf and of course NOT fogetting my only prince GAYFERYN for his support, love & encouragement HE had showered to his only yongest sister beloved one & only last sister. Thanks so much... May GOD Bless all of you with Health = Life most treason gift & Happiness = Life Richest Assets.

Especially to my 3 beloved kids; Joyce, Gayferyn & Grace

This essay or composition is written for all those me loves with all my heart deep from top to bottom inside of my heart. Especially to : My three lovely kids, my family, my relatives, my closed ones and those whom me had told me love. My love is true, pure, innocent, decent and its as clear as blue sky.

Like the sky, sometimes it changes cloudy, sometimes dark and maybe sometimes misty. No matter how its colour changes; its STILL only but 'the sky' and same with my heart. Its always true to itself. Changes happens when we are mere human beings; living in this earth land. To err is human remember?? Everyone does mistakes, everyone needs forgiveness and everyone needs to be "love' or to find 'love'.

Love is only a 'word' ; & it doesn't cost a single dime. Therefore many tends to use is freely. Plus there's no law in this earth land that states one will be punished if one forsake the person he/she said they love. I count my blessings each day for having those whom had given me some minor love me needed when me was young.Being living with my grandparents and growing up with my aunties and uncles whom are just like bros and sisters to me. As for all my aunties whom me owes my gratitude's towards.. Me would like to say "thank you" to them here for making me whom me am today. They taught me good manners, to be kind, not to lie, not to cheat and not to steal. I really owes all these well learnt lessons from them.

I've been thro' it, lives in its situation, seen it thro' and now walking pass by it. You know, life is but a journey. A journey has itz ups and downs just as the sea waves. Sometimes there's high tide and sometimes low tide. It keeps flowing and will never stop. At the time when it stops; that could be the 'end of the journey'. So I belief that everyone should never stop and continue fighting it through till you drop dead. Because when you stop fighting, there's no more hopes left behind, no more desire remaining anymore. Therefore to continue living, one must always fight it thro'; strongly and bravely. Be it tough, be it hard, be it rough, its always 'worth-it' when you fight for what you wanted, what you desire 'life' to be like.

To my beloved children ; here mimi (mummy) would wanna tell you all... Mi loves you all till my dying day. Mi will always do what mi can do to improve all your standard of living. Mi will continue to 'fight' for what mi think; is BEST for all of you. Please do understands that for everything mi does, mi do it for 'your sake'. Mi have hardly spends a dime on mi myself when me was around with all of you. Every dime, every penny me earns, mi uses it back on my family. Mi had grown up in a thrifty manner. Mi don't buys as much clothes, as many shoes, been to as many movies as all of you have enjoyed. Mi has learnt to buy only what me needed or could affords to buy. Mi am never like all of you, so spoilt and rotten. Mi drives a lousy move able car that could take me from A to B... and mi am happy with just that. Mi tried to maintain the home (flat) that mi bought but sadly none of you likes that home. Btw, its gone now, so no point mentioning about it anymore.Mi knows that everyone had tried to stop mi from leaving, everyone thinks that mi will not leaves if you all blocks Grace from coming with mimi. Sadly, you all made the biggest mistake and had caused too much pains for Grace and mimi to face. Grace is mimi's one and only last baby and she will always be mi's little princess of my family forevermore till my dying day. Now... you all can see... how much hurts and sadness this departure had brings into Grace and mi's life. She's upset, she don't have a mom near her; while am crying here each day praying to be near her, with her and by her... Nevertheless... things just cant turns back overnight; same as the clock. Once the time is gone, you would have to wait for the right time, the right moment to make things running smoothly again. Therefore, in between this waiting periods, mi just can keeps mi's fingers crossed and pray hard. Praying for all the BEST miracle to happen one fine day. Not too long to come.. so just takes a little extra patience. Patience conquers the world and makes it evolves round the world. Persistency will brings one to the 'success' path of one's desire as long one keeps one's mind clear in pursuing into persistency.

I love all of you sincerely, truthfully and with all my honesty. I am doing my duty, I am thinking of all of you each and every second, every minute, every moment, everyday, every week, every month and every year as time drags me by. I'm keeping to my dreams of a 'happy family' there to be one fine sunshiny day. We will all be reunited and enjoys our time together, sharing each precious moments we missed out. Although me do knows, it will never be the same anymore becoz all of you would have grown up and have your own life to live. Therefore, all that's in my dreams might just turns into ashes. Nevertheless, till then... I just really wanted to tell all of you.. Everything I do, I do for 'you', every moment I live, its becoz of "you". Without "you" my life would have been but an empty sack. I will do all my best to protect 'you' and although we may be far apart from each other; just remember... I'm as near as it is to you coz 'you all' am living alive in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. I love each of you fairly. Each of you is my individual gold "treasure" where no1 can replace, no money could buys. "You" are all my hopes, my desire in living pursuing a better future for all of you may not make sense to you. One day, when you all finds out and understands the truth. Just pray you all will see the difference in living life here and compares it, then at that moment, hoping 'you all' will 'thanks' me... that is IF I'm still around. For time being; May GOD bless each of you with health & happiness. Be Strong all my beloved kids. I know you all CAN make it goes right. I have faith in all of you 'my child.'

One day, you all will see all these me had suffered and underwent just for all your 'happiness' 'here ' to be. Words are mi has to express my feelings mi has deep down inside of mimi.

I love you all very very much.

Be Bless & Stay Bless. Best Regards. - Mimi(mummy)

Nothing BUT the TRUTH; esp 4 my baby princess Grace

My life started poor.My mom got into a mess in her relationships. This had drags my life along. My first marriage lasted approximately 20yrs. I have 2girls and one boy. My ex is a kind soft hearted man. Sadly, very irresponsible.Had been through lots of tough and rough times while in this marriage. Next, after my divorce, I met and fell in love with an online black american man. He came over to visit me and brought along his proposal diamond ring.He had helps me a lot in my financial matters while we were apart from each other.Life had been better without too much financial worries.Finally, my fiancess visa was approved. I came over to the states in Oct,2004, leaving my litta princess age 9ys old behind. My heart was so heavy with flooded tears. She couldn't come with me due to the lack of Letter Of Consent(LOC) from her dad whom has the liability to visit her anytime he wanted stated in my divorce child custody papers. Therefore, without his consent, I cant do anything about it. Everyone in the family was trying to stop me from leaving. Even my ex-parents in law still loves me and hates to see me leave. They all think that if they blocks my litta girl from coming with me, they could probably stops me from leaving. I prooved them deadly wrong. Although my heart was flooded up with tears of sorrowness, I just had to swallows it down and go ahead and prepares to leave. The main reason behind this is becoz I'm married to my presnt American hubby and since young, I was thought that a lady's duty as a wife is to serve him, be by him, stay by him & support him in whatever he does. Add it up with, he is not a young man. He was 60yrs old when me married him and one will knows what may happens tomorrow. I cant expects him to keep sending me money and yet not be by his side to serve him and his needs. I do loves him to have married him. I love him as he is and not for his wealth nor his properties. So I've made up my mind to be a good wife. After all he's a responsible man and had been helping me in supporting my kids finacial needs for all our wait time while my visa was on the process. I really cant keeps expecting for his money and leaves him all alone.

As to understands someone is to live with them, get to know them. For I really knows him until I've really been with him to find out more about him and his ways, his behaviours, his characters and all about 'him'. Therefore, I've decided to leave with my heavy flooded heart. I've only got no other choices. Either I leave or to stay on. So my mind's made up by the way I feel on what's right for me to do.

I love you Grace, I've beg and talk so nicely to you, praying you will come to your senses and agrees to follow me here and explains to your dad that you wanted to be with mimi. Coz mi knows you needs me more than anybody and mi needs you more than anyone else also. The saddest point, is you will grow up and then leaves mi to find your own future there to be out in this world. As mi had explains on mi's other post; life is but a journey. Sinve me am married to didi Walter, therefore this is where mi should be.Wishing, hoping and apraying that your visa procedures will be approved pretty soon and we can be together as soon as possible. IF only you had not rejected your first approved visa, things would have been smoother & easier. So.. now patience is all we both needs. Am sure we will together very very soon. Mi am soooooo proud of you for being a strong independent girl all this while; when mi am away from you. Mimi loves you my baby in my heart, my princess of my family. Soon, we will be reunited, very soon me prays. May GOD Bless with health & happiness forevermore. Forgive mimi. Mi loves "you" and each one of my child & family members. - Mimi(mum)