My life started poor.My mom got into a mess in her relationships. This had drags my life along. My first marriage lasted approximately 20yrs. I have 2girls and one boy. My ex is a kind soft hearted man. Sadly, very irresponsible.Had been through lots of tough and rough times while in this marriage. Next, after my divorce, I met and fell in love with an online black american man. He came over to visit me and brought along his proposal diamond ring.He had helps me a lot in my financial matters while we were apart from each other.Life had been better without too much financial worries.Finally, my fiancess visa was approved. I came over to the states in Oct,2004, leaving my litta princess age 9ys old behind. My heart was so heavy with flooded tears. She couldn't come with me due to the lack of Letter Of Consent(LOC) from her dad whom has the liability to visit her anytime he wanted stated in my divorce child custody papers. Therefore, without his consent, I cant do anything about it. Everyone in the family was trying to stop me from leaving. Even my ex-parents in law still loves me and hates to see me leave. They all think that if they blocks my litta girl from coming with me, they could probably stops me from leaving. I prooved them deadly wrong. Although my heart was flooded up with tears of sorrowness, I just had to swallows it down and go ahead and prepares to leave. The main reason behind this is becoz I'm married to my presnt American hubby and since young, I was thought that a lady's duty as a wife is to serve him, be by him, stay by him & support him in whatever he does. Add it up with, he is not a young man. He was 60yrs old when me married him and one will knows what may happens tomorrow. I cant expects him to keep sending me money and yet not be by his side to serve him and his needs. I do loves him to have married him. I love him as he is and not for his wealth nor his properties. So I've made up my mind to be a good wife. After all he's a responsible man and had been helping me in supporting my kids finacial needs for all our wait time while my visa was on the process. I really cant keeps expecting for his money and leaves him all alone.
As to understands someone is to live with them, get to know them. For I really knows him until I've really been with him to find out more about him and his ways, his behaviours, his characters and all about 'him'. Therefore, I've decided to leave with my heavy flooded heart. I've only got no other choices. Either I leave or to stay on. So my mind's made up by the way I feel on what's right for me to do.
I love you Grace, I've beg and talk so nicely to you, praying you will come to your senses and agrees to follow me here and explains to your dad that you wanted to be with mimi. Coz mi knows you needs me more than anybody and mi needs you more than anyone else also. The saddest point, is you will grow up and then leaves mi to find your own future there to be out in this world. As mi had explains on mi's other post; life is but a journey. Sinve me am married to didi Walter, therefore this is where mi should be.Wishing, hoping and apraying that your visa procedures will be approved pretty soon and we can be together as soon as possible. IF only you had not rejected your first approved visa, things would have been smoother & easier. So.. now patience is all we both needs. Am sure we will together very very soon. Mi am soooooo proud of you for being a strong independent girl all this while; when mi am away from you. Mimi loves you my baby in my heart, my princess of my family. Soon, we will be reunited, very soon me prays. May GOD Bless with health & happiness forevermore. Forgive mimi. Mi loves "you" and each one of my child & family members. - Mimi(mum)
